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Ice Cold Lake
04:56
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I constantly consciously try to keep a cleanly conscience
It keeps me grounded in reality when the rapture is upon us
What I believe in I'll defend til my demise
And if all the strong defenders of their ethics drop like flies, that's how I'll die
So try try as you may to lead my companions astray
I know the feelings that youre feeling theyre just not properly conveyed
You're a starving unpaid actor standing barefoot in the rain
And you're phrasing your words perfectly to try to counteract the pain
So whaddaya say
The wires are exploding as they fray
I've got plenty pieces of the past just piling on my plate
And I'll never really come to terms with this purgatory state
When the sour disposition I've wound up with starts to take
I plunge down in the ice cold water
I dive into the ice cold lake
Can you empathize with anything at all?
How long will you remain in power how long how long
Cause I've been walking right by your side and it's been hell even getting this far
Oh your demons are darker than I imagined from the start
Oh your demons are darker than I imagined from the start
Apologize for this apocalypse that's all that I ask
For all this torment and torture I just want something back (x4)
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2. |
Lou Dream Jam
03:15
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Am I escaping conviction?
Or am I stuck in a mental prison?
A greater pain than the pain you have experienced
Do I belong in a psych ward?
I heard you screaming, I saw you fight, but
Within my brain your pain's not all that serious
They're grasping at straws when it comes to the detail
For all I involved, I'm sorry I sold you in to this
I'm stupid and selfish and probably facing imprisonment
and I might take my own life depending on how long the sentence is
Behind bars, I'm begging you to spare me
I am the headline, a horrible man
I am the headline, I'm a horrible man
I am the headline, I am the headline
I am the headline, yea I am the exile
and I'm on a high speed chase down Sunset Boulevard
They took me in for questioning
My friends they all won't say a thing
They know what they got into from the start
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3. |
Dehydration
04:52
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I'm alone in the wilderness
I am confined within the space I was provided with
A shaded shelter filled with shedding skin
I was betrayed by all the people I confided in
Drain the life from me like a vacuum for my blood and body
The walls are closing in on this death trap I'm sorry
I'm on a desert island I'm dying from dehydration
And I've sent out smoke signals but I'm running out of patience
I am an inanimate object in the scheme of things
My harsh reality prevented me from dreaming big
I am a black and white photo held by a broken frame
If I'm not content then I'll just continue wandering
So cut me off if you insist
I won't take part in all of this
I tried
Access denied
I'm armed and dangerous
I'm balled up in a strangers fist
Exposed
I'm dying slow
Give me a few months to fry my brain up
I think I left a part of me in Pennsylvania perhaps
And that's another reason why I'm never looking back
It was fleeting too quickly to catch
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4. |
20 Years
05:16
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Started swimming my way to the center
I've been playing to my pleasure receptors
I've been pardoning people for their behavior
I'm somewhere between a sellout and a savior
My days a series of carefully planned distractions
Deep thoughts and slightly delayed reactions
All of these marks on my skin are burns and scratches
Everything is so much better in my absence
I feel so unappreciated for my absence
And I pull myself apart providing people access
And I lose opportunities because I'm anxious
And it's been twenty years and I still can't fully grasp it
What's the arbitrary value of my ashes
'Cause I'm ninety nine percent sure life if filled with nonsense
And if I have to kill myself to clear my conscience
I'll put the awful parts about me up for auction
Lazy and lonely for the long-term
Heart burn I think I took the wrong turn
And frankly I'm confused by my surroundings, but I've found things to keep me grounded
I'm unprepared and unadjusted
Slowly been betrayed by all the people that I trusted
Can't wait 'till the day that the universe does me justice
It could be days, it could be months, it could be hundreds
I never quite knew how to deal with pain well
That's why I spent the last two years destroying all my brain cells
I'm walking on a narrow path of needles, pins, and eggshells
And I can feel my spirit leave my body when I exhale
I can communicate with those beyond the grave
'Cause honestly I've died a bit over the years myself in many ways
I am a pessimistic particle of hate
No, I'm not the type of person you should talk to everyday
Swam as fast as I could, but now it's over
A simple man with a stomach of a soldier
There were casualties, maybe hundreds in total
I'll let them know I'm the one who slit their throat
I feel so unappreciated for my absence
And I pull myself apart providing people access
And I lose opportunities because I'm anxious
And its been twenty years and I still can't fully grasp it
What's the arbitrary value of my ashes
'Cause I'm ninety nine percent sure life if filled with nonsense
And if I have to kill myself to clear my conscience
I'll put the awful parts about me up for auction
I never quite knew how to deal with pain well
That's why I spent the last two years destroying all my brain cells
I'm walking on a narrow path of needles, pins, and eggshells
And I can feel my spirit leave my body when I exhale
I can communicate with those beyond the grave
I can communicate with those beyond the grave
I can communicate with those beyond the grave, with those beyond the grave
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5. |
Tombstones Into Torches
05:54
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I'm not a mercenary no not for anybody
I'm out of patience out of time and out of money
It starts off good, and then turns bad and just gets ugly
I'm sad and selfish but somehow the people love me
I don't mind making a fool of myself in public
At times I'm not a person and I'm more of just a puppet
I can just be quiet now or continue to cause an upset
Oh but I'm the usual suspect, yea I'm the usual suspect
I am a carry on bag I'm always hanging over peoples heads
Hovering in the background like a holographic projection
This see-through scenery's like salt in my wounds
And I know they sent me off to war but I'm coming home soon
Quickly escalating into chaos
Burning through me like an acid rain drop
I sometimes see myself as Satan when I'm startled
And that's not something that you wanna be a part of
But as far as I can see there's no escaping
I am a hero with a gunshot wound that's gaping
So to pretend that I'm deriving some enjoyment
I'll do cartwheels as I'm carrying these corpses, yea I'll turn around turn tombstones into torches
Layers won't lighten the impact almost at all
The glue that held me together is definitely gone
And it's a long hard cold road onward
The chattering is constant
It's all just completely nonsense to me anyway
Quickly escalating into chaos
Burning through me like an acid rain drop
I sometimes see myself as satan when I'm startled
And that's not something that you wanna be a part of
But as far as I can see there's no escaping
I am a hero with a gunshot wound that's gaping
So to pretend that I'm deriving some enjoyment
I'll do cartwheels as I'm carrying these corpses, yea I'll turn around turn tombstones into torches
One more time television static tearing through my ears
Young and confused again my eyes are streaming tears
I am an idiot who's wise beyond his years
And causing harm is not the reason that I'm here
Causing harm is not the reason that I'm here
The reason that I'm here
The reason that I'm here
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110 Degrees
03:50
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The mind of a maniac can become a murder weapon
I'm believing whatever I'm told cause I don't want myself or my clients to be misrepresented
I thought about ending it here
But they're eagerly watching
It just gets so exhausting to calm myself knowing they're constantly calling your name to the stand
Why would you incarcerate the captives
We are living our lives at 110 degrees
Where's the testimony where's the target
Forced to fight for a terrible cause
If we're not in hell then I don't know where we are
Is this probable cause for a search
I know in my head that he did it but money comes first
Will he be left in charge of his kids?
I can't say that I would be able to sleep if he is
and I know that I'm putting their lives at risk by leaving them with him
And I know its my job and I shouldn't get involved but I just can't live with the guilt
Why would you incarcerate the captives?
Why would you incarcerate the captives?
The very captives calling out to me
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Cigarettes
04:04
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I put a gun to my head, to try and break my mind
'Cause I'm taking more control, I guess I'm taking more control
I put a knife to your tongue, to make you stop telling me that you love me, love me again
So save your breath, 'cause I can't stand the smell of your cigarettes
Save my life, 'cause I can't save it myself
I've got a six-pack of beer in my trunk
Oh god I hope I don't crash my car tonight
Jesse find a cure
Get me high I will endure
All your secrets to pretend
I look cool and composed, but yet I crumble inside almost every time
So keep your forked tongue behind your teeth
Let's just keep this between you and me
I've got a six-pack of beer in my trunk
Oh god I hope I don't crash my car tonight
Jesse find a cure
Get me high I will endure
All your secrets to pretend
Your legs are smooth as your body lies on mine
I'll take these secrets as a lie
Cause I can't stand the smell of your cigarettes
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Dandelions
04:07
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Suddenly I'm suffering
Something that no ones understanding
A hibernation for the fall
Bury your heads, don't speak at all
Why do my green eyes see gruesome things that go away every time I blink?
The hollow ghost of a better time
The candle burns in my melting mind
I left my prized possession in the pouring rain
A black hole depression in my burning brain
Now we're all defiant drinking wine in silence
I'm a diamond cut from dying dandelions
Cut the wings, I killed a monster
Fell and crushed my spine
Rotton fruit with an empty core
I've got no backbone anymore
Come here you ungrateful bastards
Don't break each others' necks
There's only peace when there's nothing said
Trading this comfort for nothingness
Cardbord cutout
We're animated pressed into a lie
Tape shut our mouths
Prevent the truth from coming into light
Its coursing through my body like its lightning
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The screams, they echo through the stained glass and the wind chimes
Just block it all out, chase it all down with bottles of red wine
I'm a man who cant speak, a man who's thoughts don't even matter, I'm shattering slowly beneath
I'm the stone that they cast and left me wherever I landed to fall on my ass
Partially paralyzed, plagued as a pet
I've dealt with disaster, I'm not dying yet
And my family has all but abandoned me, I guess
Strapped to this chair at the hip we're attached
Clinging to life by the end of a raft
I've got a gun in my drawer so I know there's an easier path
And it's quite the opposite of that
Oh it's quite the opposite of that
I feel like an animal chained up in torment
As I reach for my cane, I scream out in pain and I'm beaten and scolded
And the more that I drink, the more that I think I can't bare to grow old here
Halfway across the world, yea I traveled my whole life and ended up nowhere
Oh I may be leg-locked but I can still think
With a pistol in hand and some bourbon to drink
As she led him upstairs, oh I cried to their footsteps
So don't be deceitful on my dying day
You probably laughed as you watched my legs break
I saw a man in your bed and had a dream about kicking his ass
And its quite the opposite of that
oh its quite the opposite of that
I needed to communicate somehow
That it's killing me slowly just being in this house
It's a race to the end, it's a matter of which route
Yea I'm old and I'm scared and I'm tired and sick now
But its quite the opposite of that
yea its quite the opposite of that
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10. |
Vegetable
05:32
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Every time I face my fears, it blows up in my face
From that day on, I knew that I'd be dying in this place
A holding cell, this grave I dug deliberately deep
These thoughts of failure keep me captive, haunt me in my sleep
I promise I don't want to die this life is all I know
I'm just immature as fuck and I need some time to grow
This stressful situation creates tension in my wrists
So I walk these empty streets with a blunt between my cold dead lips
Factory pressed to be the best I don't quite fit the model
I'm slowly becoming obsessed
'Cause this sadness seems perpetual
And I've made myself a vegetable
And it's really nice to meet you, oh I'm so glad I met you all
Got many people you can call
Who will make sure I'm miserable
'Cause this fucked up world just can't accept me as an individual
Starved of recognition, I'm a joke, a fraud, a one hit wonder
I'm just delirious from all the pressure that I'm under
I am a sorry, sour soul but my worst fear aren't tangible
Just going through the motions, daily life feels so mechanical
Stand as still as a statue, as I watch from the backroom
Petrified with fear it almost feels like I have to
It feels like I'm on house arrest, 'cause my world's a fucking mess
And I've got to make my mark before I fade to nothingness because,
I view this world from different angles, with this bracelet on my ankle
And when I try to speak I choke, its almost like I'm being strangled
I am a prisoner of war who's not sure what he's fighting for
I am the jealousy and hatred you ignore, so fall to the floor
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